"Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself." ~Leo Nikolaevich Tolstoy
There is something so promising in those first few moments, when you open your eyes and you have yet left the comfort and warmth of your bed. I actually sleep with the blinds 1/2 of the way open, and a beautiful stain glassed heart hanging in the middle. This is so I can see the sun trickle in, and in turn, I can welcome a new day.
It took my husband some time to get used to waking up to the bright sun. But for me it works to wake up more naturally on a day I may not have to set the alarm.
The mood has changed in the house again. Acceptance on my part. I knew I had to get over the shock of my "lack of control" of a situation. Everything IS going to be okay.
This morning, as I was drinking my coffee and flipping through a Signals catalogue, I came across a beautiful pendant. On this silver pendant that has this beautiful twist/ribbon design are the simple words - "Be Still and Know That I AM." It is from Psalms 46:10 (and actually ends with and know that I am God.)
It resonated with me today. The whole Zen approach I have been trying to incorporate. Be still. Listen. Know that God is in control. Because I am surely not. However, what I can control is how I react to difficult situations. Turns out, this quick temper I seem to have ingrained in me comes from the fact I react according to my emotions. It's the only time you see my emotions. In anger. Otherwise, they don't exist. (Sounds like someone needs to learn to express herself better, eh?)
That's what I want to work on today.. Being Still. Taking my time. It is a national holiday (In Observance of Martin Luther King Jr's Birthday.) I have the joy of actually taking a restful day off. Since I spent yesterday sad and confused, I need to regain my joy and simmer in the beauty of stillness and leisure.
You know, MLK was a remarkable man. He changed the way America dealt with minority groups. Changing a way a people thinks takes a little bit longer - but with each generation, that change is obvious. Maybe it's the same with me. Maybe I can make myself do things a little differently, and in time - maybe I will actually begin to think that way. And Be Still... and know that I AM.
"The time is always right to do what is right." ~Martin Luther King, Jr.