Know thy self.
I'm not sure who first coined the phrase, but it is the single most important phrase eva.
I say this because when my eyes popped open this morning, I realized I have figured a few things out for myself:
1. The fog of the past has cleared.
2. I feel like my "old self" - circa 1997
3. I can finance myself.
4. I have work experience.
5. I don't have much of a "need" for anything major right now.
6. I know what I believe. I know who my friends are. I know where I stand politically.
7. No time for B.S.
You know what I mean?
This past week has been super relaxing. Granted, it's only Tuesday, but I feel really good. I think by taking the time to heal some old wounds, get some closure, and just move on has been the single most therapeutic thing I could possibly do for myself. I know many of you have been championing me on.. and I thank you.
Things are going so smoothly that after a single act of terrible betrayal by a so called friend, I was able to just breathe, listen to a little feel good music, and move the eff on. Yep. No time for false friends. No time for BS games. I have my sweet circle and I am good.
Speaking of that circle, I want to thank those fantastic people that I love so dearly (my extended sistersbyanothermama family) for all they have done for me. It warms my heart to look back at how long I have known so many of you - 28 years or more! You guys helped me get through this ridiculous time. I'm at 8 weeks out from the divorce. Can you believe it? Two months and I feel really good.
Speaking of that, I am thoroughly enjoying spending time with my new guy friend. (No labels yet.) He is adorable, sweet, and incredibly attentive. Exactly. What. I. Need. Right. Now. We both are super independent and have our own lives, but we are making time to just enjoy our friendship and whatever else. It's good.
Finally, that brings me to the kicking ass and taking names part. I have systematically removed all of the toxins from my life. I am not allowing anymore in. No more control. No more false friendships. No more pretentious behavior for immature upwardly mobile types... I'm just chilling out and enjoying myself. I am finally at that point in my life where I simply feel like being self-involved. Not in a vanity sort of way, but in a nourishing way.
Where are you at in your life? What transitional life experiences put you there?