For the most part, I am an open book. You guys get a general peek into my life. But the key word is general.
Every once in a while I discuss controversial or personal topics. But rarely do I take you all of the way in.
I started thinking about the things I rarely discuss with anyone. Believe it or not - there are some topics. For one, I rarely discuss my previous marriage. Eight years with my ex really did a number on me. There are probably dozens of stories that would just blow your mind. But I tend to censor those, since my family & friends read it. Let's just say - he was not a good person. I sometimes give him the benefit of the doubt because he comes off as a "good old boy." But the truth is, he was the biggest manipulator I have ever met.
Another thing I don't like to talk about is the seven years I dealt with fighting off the "C" word. Those pesty little abnormal cells just kept regrowing and multiplying and coming back in different forms. Three procedures later, and a round of topical chemo (seriously - there is a kind that is for skin and is topical) - I was able to come out okay. In the end - it took my womb and caused some hormonal fluctuations.. but I am here.
I hardly ever go into great detail about my time with meningitis. That is a living hell.
Plus, I have never gone into great detail about my panic disorder. Ahhh.. didn't know about that one, did you? I have suffered from panic attacks since I was 8 years old. I rarely really go into that either.
I could go on and on and on. As I am sure many of you could. The difference may be this - I HATE not talking about it. I want to go into great detail. It sits inside of me like a pot about to boil over. But honestly.. there are sooo many details no one needs to know. It's considered private and personal... and yes, I do have to draw the line somewhere.
What issues make you want to draw the line and close the door?