Sunday, September 18, 2011

I wonder...

I wonder... what October holds. September is always my worst month of any given year, no big surprise, nothing has happened for me. Can you believe I have been unemployed since July 29th?? That's almost two months. 60 days. 8 weeks.. WOW. WTH?

I think I need to find one of these fortune tellers and ask the age old question - "What's in my future?" Will it be a job here in Birmingham? Building my life with my new friends, and various opportunities...

Will I head home - surrounding myself with all of my old friends and family?

Will I patch things up with my significant other, or will he take flight?

Will I pull myself out of the financial hole that is looming around the corner (so far, so good... believe it or not.)

What's up?

The truth of the matter is, it's not for me to know yet. Simple as that.
For the absolute first time in my entire life, I have truly turned it over to God. Sure, I feel some little twinge of anxiety... but like all massive transitional times in my life, there is a glorious adventure right around the corner.

As for my personal life - it is what it is. I actually got some of the best advice this weekend, while driving out to the country, my friend said to me, "You are giving the whole situation too much energy. You need to take care of YOU." She's not the first one to tell me that, I do need to take care of me.

I have wasted almost two months. I could have been cultivating my spirit, instead I sort of did it 1/2 a$$.. which I am notorious of. One day I am focused and ready to roll, the next day - I sort of fizzle out.



I think I put so much effort into the job search and booking interviews within the first month, now I am just riding out the wave of contact. God willing, I get SOME sort of answer... and soon.

4 comments:

TV's Take said...

This sounds like a great plan :-)

Janet said...

Your friend gave you good advice about taking care of yourself.

Also, I don't think it's helpful to berate yourself for "wasted time" (the first two months of unemployment.) Losing a job is a lot to take in, and it's also a process to absorb all the feelings and start to adjust to what happened. I think this process, in itself, is "cultivating the spirit".

It's a tricky balance - nurturing the spirit while in the back of your mind, you're realizing that you're unemployed. But that balance can be found and maintained - (speaking from experience.)

God will provide.

Leanne said...

Yep - take care of yourself. Give it up to God (I do that often) and breathe. It will happen, my friend. It will.

Yenta Mary said...

There is so much transition to work through, it's no wonder each day is either up or down or both. But there is also so much potential - in YOU, in the future. Something fabulous is in store, because you deserve it ... :)

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