Maybe it is time to roll on and take a retreat of some kind. I think this time I could handle the silence. But what about a retreat that is more like a workshop? Something a little more therapeutic?
I wonder what type of things are out there like that? Just a weekend getaway to totally focus on your life. I know it is a little self indulgent, but how nice it would be to go to some sort of "life coach" seminar where they walk you through your process.
Who am I kidding? I am sure something like this would involve a long plane ride and a hefty entrance fee.
See, in the past - when the pressure gage was turned up, I would go out with some of my friends.. and we would go dancing, drinking, and whatever else we wanted to do until the wee hours of the morning.
Now I am in a more settled atmosphere, with no alcohol in site. (Can't - husband's religious beliefs.) PLUS - I quit drinking. Yep, sure did.
But it is nights like tonight, when I would give anything to sit with a nice glass of wine and a good friend to talk to.
Yep, I am being punished. He shut down again - completely. Difference this time - I am just too damned tired to play these ridiculous mind games he is so fond of.
The dramatic antics of arab men (and yes, apparently this is common) - are RIDICULOUS. I was NEVER into soap operas.. nor am I in the mood for them now.
Blah Blah.. I know. Nothing to worry about folks, just venting deep inside my blog post.
Tomorrow I am grabbing my power back. Be damned the elements that want to twist it any other way.
I promise - last morose post for quite some time. Just had to vent one more time! :-)
Gee.. I wonder what it is like to be appreciated 24/7? Hmm.. I get a sprinkle of love from time to time.. but to truly be loved, adored and appreciated. Hmm.. I wonder what that is like? ;-)