Monday, September 6, 2010

WOTD - Ambiguity

At first I was totally turning my nose up at my "Word of the Day" bestowed on my by my sister. (Want to see more head to the upper right side tab.) Ambiguity is sooooo Ambiguous.. ;-)

But then I happened up the perfect image for this post and I realized - THAT IS THE THEME OF MY BLOG. Who knew a word would sum up my life, my blog, my journey through life. Check it out:

I don't think I could have said it any better. Here's the thing, I used to be such a massive planner. I still am (I mean.. did you see the plans for my vacations??) BUT there is a difference now - I get a basic road map. Which means I decide where I would like the world to unfold. Truth be told - I can just get lost in the streets. Which I do, BUT - I also know that if I see something that I wanted to check out, it makes it all the more sweet.

I guess this brings me to my Blog's name - Destination: Unknown   (Not all who wander are lost.) As a child, I always knew what I wanted to be. I followed that path and never strayed all of the way until I met my first husband. Here is where I have an 8 year hiccup. Oh the stupid things we do for "love."

I ended up leaving my chosen career (television news) to take a job in public relations/media relations. I wanted more money. I wanted the house, the cars, the dogs, the nice things. Oh yeah- typical 20 -something year old mentality. I wanted to "play house." Yeah - did not work. Sure, the money improved (ps - if people tell you TV pays, they are wrong.) But the dream of the home inside being perfect would never come to be.

We transplanted that dream to Birmingham... had a wonderful brand new home, perfect little kitchen...the works. But any ounce of "like" I had in me for this man was gone. My career - was gone. My friends and family were gone. It's not as if I did not want to leave my hometown - I did. I just wanted it to be on my terms. Ever since I met this man - nothing was on my terms.

About one year later we divorce.  Something I was sooo against, but found it necessary. Two months before we separated I found a job in my field. That same month I met the egyptian, who embodied all of the creative and aspiring qualities I wanted in a man. He was exciting, spoke three languages, english literati, free spirit.

Many months later I head to Egypt - wondering the streets of Cairo and Alexandria. I knew I had to let go of the planning and control. I knew that life was never about where I would end up. Heck, to be honest - the place we all end up is the same (right?) So I thought, I need to take a moment and smell the roses.. go with the flow.. enjoy the journey.

When I decided (one year ago) to start this blog - I did not want a theme. I do not like to be pigeon holed into a category. My moods and my writing with change daily - and NO - I don't know where I will be one month from now, or 1 year for now, or even 5 years from now.

All I know is that I have this beautiful (yet temperamental) man by my side, a decent enough resume, interesting goodies I have collected from all over the world, and imagination.

My Destination - Is still Unknown. As ambiguous as that sounds. Also - I am not lost.. I am just enjoying the bumpy ride.

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