How long have I been waiting for this moment? That moment to feel normal again?
If you are new here (and I am happy to say ~ many of you are!) I have been on one hell of a journey. From the top of my game, to being flat on my face, to slowly and painfully climbing back up... my friends, the time has come for me to get back on me two feet.
If I were able and clever enough to draw a timeline for you, I would. Instead, I only have my blog to chronicle this crazy little journey of mine.
Instead of rehashing the past, I want to take a moment and show my gratitude.
I am forever thankful to God for putting me through this. Can you believe I said that? Yeah, I did. It humbled me, it broke me down.. and in turn, I was rebuilt. I am waaaay more compassionate, humble and I know how to appreciate every little thing in my life. I know we all say it, but I sincerely mean it. I am practicing mindfulness, I am seeing people clearly, I am hearing what they say and I am super sensitive to what others need, versus my own needs.
I ended up exactly where I was needed. If I had not been here, I would not have been able to push my Dad into going to the hospital a month ago. If I had not lost my job, I would have never had almost 9 months to just think. Sure.. it was no vacation. But I was able to just BE. Every so often I would get a minute of peace, and I began to seek those moments more. I suddenly became aware of that feels like.
I got to spend time with my family (regardless of how insane they are at times.) I got to reconnect with old friends. I got to figure out who really cared about me from Bham. (Which, btw, they were all REAL friends. That's awesome to learn.) I have met some wonderful new people in my current job. The best part of it all - soooo many people have turned to me and said, "I am so happy you are back. It's good to see you. Also, you are at (the museum) at the perfect time." I just get chills every time someone says that.
It's like a celestial confirmation that yes, I am indeed where I should be. Right place. Right time.
With that being said - Thank you God for giving me THIS life. The one I am leading. The path I am taking.
Thanks to my family for providing a roof over my head and food for my belly.
Thanks to my friends who stuck by me, even when I did not have a dime to visit them. Some of you proved that you were not "fair weather" friends.
Thanks to my employer for giving me a chance - and in turn, I have found a place to shine.
Thank you for reading my dribble, sending comments that always brighten my day, sweet emails of concern and even a few phone calls.
My heart is full of gratitude.
It's time to move into my own home.
PS - IT'S SOOOO FREAKING CUTE.