Saturday, March 23, 2013

And so it ends

Damn.

He asked me for a divorce. It's official. 

He plans to file for divorce and handle his end of it. 

He is telling his family tomorrow.

I feel like someone punched me in the stomach.

I called home, my Dad answered and I told him what happened.

My father laughed. 

I asked why he was laughing.

He told me, "Well.. I thought this would happen."

And.. here is the clincher.. this just goes to show you how little my family really knows me..

He says," You aren't sorry about it are you?"

I said.. "Of course I am."

Then I hung up the phone and burst into tears.

I hate putting all of this out there... 

But this is what I do.

I write.

I purge.

I share.

And so it ends... the love of my life, who has not loved me in so long, never wants to reconcile.

The end.

7 comments:

Leanne said...

Ok . . . Big deep breath . . . You deserve a better life than the one he gave you. Period. And you will be better without him. Period. I am angry with him for the years he has used you. Because I do believe he did just that. you will get through this. I think you know he wasn't in this relationship for a very.long.time. I am here for you. HUGE hug. call you tomorrow.

Renee Weatherford said...

So sorry you are going through this ((hug)) take care.

Empty Nester said...

Oh Sweetie, I'm so sorry. I have no words of wisdom, unfortunately, to offer. Not that any of them would make a difference right now anyway. But I will tell you to keep writing. Write everything. And not always on the blog- keep journals daily! Have you visited Bossy Betty? She's just gone through this the last year and is a good sounding board and support. Thinking of you!

Peggy K said...

Nicole, I'm sorry you are going thru this. You are a loving soul and you deserve to be treated better than he has treated you. I have to say that anything more I think about writing sounds mean-spirited, although it is certainly not meant to be. So I will just leave you with a hug and a prayer that you will get thru this and be much better for it. You deserve to be loved. As for him, karma will kick in. Don't know when, don't care when, because it's not my place to orchestrate that. But I know deep in my soul that karma does kick in!

Leslie Limon said...

Nicole, I am so very sorry you are having to go through this. But I agree with your friend Leanne. You deserve so much better. You deserve someone who is going to appreciate what a wonderful and amazing woman you really are. (((Hugs!)))

A Frugal Mom's Financial Expressions said...

So sorry.

Robyn Burke said...

Ah, Nicole. I am truly sorry. It may have been something you thought would happen but that does not lessen the pain. Praying for you, for healing even as you mourn this loss. hugs.

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