Today feels like a breath of fresh air! Perhaps the rain sort of washed away the pain, the disappointment, the discouragement I've sort of been toying with.
I have closure with the guy. Last night, I got my key back and a few other things, and we parted as "friends." Though, I'm not sure if that will be the case for us. It's nice to handle things maturely, unlike rebound guy (who.. by the way... the first one I dated, has since gotten engaged. lol.)
I came home last night, did a little junk food binge (I was being funny about it, I told my room mate I wanted to try emotional eating... once I finished I looked at her and said.. yeah.. I'm good.)
My roomie ended things with her beau also. She was quite sad about it, but felt that her emotional needs were not being met, so she wanted to end it before they began to resent one another.
At one point we looked at each other and said, "Sooooo... this means we are actually both single at the same time." We got this wicked smile and began to laugh uncontrollably.
In other words - Bring on Spring & Summer fun!
I'm finally at a place where I am okay where I am. I needed to get out there and see what was up. I needed to feel pretty and wanted again. Now... well.. now I am just okay with me.
It takes a lot of energy to be in a relationship. Dating can be equally stressful and fun, and meeting people for the first time can cause you to question everything about yourself.
I don't like how that feels. Which means, I need to just chill out and let nature takes it course.
No worries, I'm not the type of girl to sit at home and pine for days long since passed. I get out and I live life. It's just this whole transition, this growth process had to take place.
I'm 41. I'm divorced. I'm successful - but I have experienced failure.
I like this. I like this about me.
I have a story. I have a life, and it's only going to get better!