Sometimes... and only sometimes... descriptive words are the only choice.
My weekend was VERY busy and slightly intense. Imagine having a friend from Birmingham and my old exchange student arriving at the exact same time. I am serious, at the same exact time. One was just passing through and looking for lodging before a conference and the other is staying indefinitely (well.. less than that, but with no set schedule.) Oh, I think I forgot to mention - a fasting egyptian. Oh yes. Can you even imagine?
Unfortunately, our home is not set up for multiple guests, but I did my best to accommodate everyone, and not interrupt my super busy plans (that were set weeks before I knew anyone else was coming to visit!) *sigh* Needless to say, I slept until 11am on Sunday. I can't believe it. I NEVER sleep that late, which means I was beat.
This weekend I realized so many things. Soooooo many things. Perhaps it's a curse to actually pick up on most people's nonverbal cues, but it happens. I can tell when a guest is expecting the red carpet versus one who is just happy to be here. I can tell when someone is genuinely open to new experiences, versus one who would rather be anywhere than where you have taken them. I can tell when people feel like their territory has been invaded versus one who simply wants to share their life with others.
At the end of the day - It is not my responsibility for any one's happiness.
For years, I used to go out of my way to make people comfortable. I never wanted anyone to feel left out, and I would just about kill myself trying to entertain everyone else, yet I would not enjoy myself.
Luckily, as I grow older, the more I realize - it's not my job to entertain you. You are responsible for that. I am only here for you if you need me.
It's kind of like that with this blog. I sometimes get caught up in trying to meet the reader's entertainment needs. Then I have to remind myself, if there is something the reader needs, they will find it. It's not my job. Just be myself and enjoy the ride.
Such is life and such was my weekend. Just a gentle reminder, I can only do so much. I can smile. I can provide conversation and coffee. I can show you my world. You decide whether you are open to the experience or not.