Which is - nothing.
I think this week was good for me. Time to think only about work, and where to drive to according to the GPS and what I will say once I arrive to meet different people. Not a lot of time to think of the empty apartment I will be returning to.
I have received 3 emails from the egyptian. That's all. He says he is really busy (I can only imagine) and that he is exhausted (again - jet lag.. sure.) He says he doesn't have a lot of time to write anything, that he is using his brother's computer and about to leave. He never closes with an "I miss you" or "I love you." That part hurts.
I don't know what I expected? Perhaps I thought he would suddenly to revert back to the darling I once knew when he was in Egypt.?Does he finally feel the freedom he so longed for? Is he just showered in attention from his mother and family? Does returning to Egypt give him the purpose he so longed for in America?
Whatever.
I will head home - to "our" home and just read a little. Eat soooo much less. Go to Zumba tomorrow. Just be.
What's on your mind today? Any thoughts hanging over you like a virus? Or are you happy and care free? Maybe today.. an email can change my mood.. only three little words would do it. ;-)
4 comments:
Hey Nicole - I'm sending positive vibes your way, hoping that you get that email too. Until then, just take one day at a time.
Glad you get to relax some and eat a lot.
I know it must be tough your guy being so far away....
Things aren't hunky dory over here either, so I feel ya. BUT perhaps he just wanted a break, like most men yearn for. I bet in a couple weeks, freedom won't be so freeing and he'll begin to truly recognize he misses you :)
What's hanging over me? Research papers! Blah. And, I'm being emotionally abused by by my tendency to dwell on the past. Yuck.
Anyway. Don't think too much into the lack of "I miss you" and "I love you"'s in his emails. He's a male, they have a hard time being lovey.
Post a Comment