But then I happened up the perfect image for this post and I realized - THAT IS THE THEME OF MY BLOG. Who knew a word would sum up my life, my blog, my journey through life. Check it out:
I don't think I could have said it any better. Here's the thing, I used to be such a massive planner. I still am (I mean.. did you see the plans for my vacations??) BUT there is a difference now - I get a basic road map. Which means I decide where I would like the world to unfold. Truth be told - I can just get lost in the streets. Which I do, BUT - I also know that if I see something that I wanted to check out, it makes it all the more sweet.
I guess this brings me to my Blog's name - Destination: Unknown (Not all who wander are lost.) As a child, I always knew what I wanted to be. I followed that path and never strayed all of the way until I met my first husband. Here is where I have an 8 year hiccup. Oh the stupid things we do for "love."
I ended up leaving my chosen career (television news) to take a job in public relations/media relations. I wanted more money. I wanted the house, the cars, the dogs, the nice things. Oh yeah- typical 20 -something year old mentality. I wanted to "play house." Yeah - did not work. Sure, the money improved (ps - if people tell you TV pays, they are wrong.) But the dream of the home inside being perfect would never come to be.
We transplanted that dream to Birmingham... had a wonderful brand new home, perfect little kitchen...the works. But any ounce of "like" I had in me for this man was gone. My career - was gone. My friends and family were gone. It's not as if I did not want to leave my hometown - I did. I just wanted it to be on my terms. Ever since I met this man - nothing was on my terms.
About one year later we divorce. Something I was sooo against, but found it necessary. Two months before we separated I found a job in my field. That same month I met the egyptian, who embodied all of the creative and aspiring qualities I wanted in a man. He was exciting, spoke three languages, english literati, free spirit.
Many months later I head to Egypt - wondering the streets of Cairo and Alexandria. I knew I had to let go of the planning and control. I knew that life was never about where I would end up. Heck, to be honest - the place we all end up is the same (right?) So I thought, I need to take a moment and smell the roses.. go with the flow.. enjoy the journey.
When I decided (one year ago) to start this blog - I did not want a theme. I do not like to be pigeon holed into a category. My moods and my writing with change daily - and NO - I don't know where I will be one month from now, or 1 year for now, or even 5 years from now.
All I know is that I have this beautiful (yet temperamental) man by my side, a decent enough resume, interesting goodies I have collected from all over the world, and imagination.
My Destination - Is still Unknown. As ambiguous as that sounds. Also - I am not lost.. I am just enjoying the bumpy ride.
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