What to Write?

I'm sitting here trying to decide what to write about.

I was skimming the past week's blog entries and I realized everything was so superficial. Blah blah blah.

I think in this next transition I have a choice, I can give you the high points, or the low points. Trust me, there are low points, but I don't feel the need to open up quite that much online about how vulnerable I feel. 

Which is completely true.

I feel vulnerable.

I am more sensitive.

I am more cautious.

I think this is normal. I realize that this too shall pass, but for now, it's real and it's happening. 

It happens when I pray. It happens when I slow down long enough to allow my thoughts to catch up with me. I'm a solver, and when I stop long enough to quit solving the problem, my more vulnerable side rears its ugly head.

BUT.. I am feeling more happiness than usual. That piece has tilted a little more on the scale, a little more in my favor. Before it was sadness on the heavy side, and happiness from time to time. Now it's happiness on the heavy side and sadness from time to time.

I'm handling it all. I'm doing the best I can. 


With all of that being said, and really nothing at ALL being said.. I will close. 

That's just where I am..;-)