Cheer On!

Ha! Sometimes I have to remind myself to be my own cheerleader. Seem weird?

Well, it's necessary.

I work hard. I do. I know you know this because I tell you all of the time. Since it's my blog, my journal, it's what I do - I document how I feel about what's going on in my life. So if working hard is something I feel like sharing, that's exactly what I will share.

Even though I don't openly seek validation, it is nice to be recognized for your hard work. It's nice to hear "congratulations," when an event goes well, or an "I'm so proud of you," when you accomplish some task that is not always attainable by everyone.

I don't want to go into great detail at something I noticed with a certain civic organization I am a member of, but let's just say that the things I am doing are never recognized. It's true! When someone a year later does the same thing, they are publicly congratulated. It totally cracks me up.

Or let's take my birthday for an example. I had a pretty rough year, and on my last birthday, though I smiled and generally had a good time, I was super sad on the inside because my then-husband showed up at my party late, then left after hanging out for a few minutes. I kept laughing and smiling, but the truth was I was dying inside. 

I have to be happy for myself. I am excited to enjoy my life with people I enjoy spending my life with. I love celebrating people, places, events, and I think everyone should feel special. But... for me... I have to be my own cheerleader.

Guess what?

That's okay. It really is!

I write about this today to purge it. I have to purge it, so I don't strike back or have an attitude toward others. I'm volunteering tonight for a group of people that under any other circumstances, I would not be spending time with outside of perhaps something work related. These are not my people. BUT - society has it set up that for people in my line of work, it is something I have to do - so I'm doing it. 

I have to put a smile on my face and make the best of it. And I will.

With that - I will pick up my poms poms.. pull out a cheer.. and get through this day. 

Woo Hoo!. ;-)