I am Aware.

"Well, one of the things I discovered in the course of looking back and writing about what I saw in my memory is that I was a closely observant person long before I became a reporter. "
~ Alma Guillermoprieto


The is one thing I can say for certain, I am aware. Aware of everything, to be completely honest. I consider it both a curse and a gift.

When something amazing happens, I tend to recall the smells, the colors, the music that was playing, whether it was a sunny day or a little overcast  - it's what I do.

Unfortunately, it means I can recall the really bad things. I can remember the words, the inflection, the smells, every single detail. Which is great for debating, really, REALLY bad for the tape recorder  in my brain that sometimes get stuck on rewind/play.

I am trying really hard to let things go.

I am trying really hard to hold onto the good.

I think this could help me face the upcoming days with a smile.

The truth of the matter is, there is a LOT of good in my life. At least in the past there was. I have held some really cool positions in the job world. I have dated some really interesting people. I have traveled to some great places. I have met some of the most fascinating people. I met a man I was madly in love with, married him, and brought him to my country.

All in all I need to do is remember those good times. Stop letting the negative tape recorder play.

Moving forward- it's all good. Well.. at least I will try. :-)