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Only one thing is certain - and that is death. With that being said, how am I to find any hope on this earth?

Yes my friends, I am in a very morbid mood. Too dark and too deep. It gets harder and harder to see the good: the good in people, the good in things, the good in general.

My tests have been hard and cut me to the core.

Today, I sat idly by as a dear co-worker was let go after 18 years of service. Another, who made major changes and brought numerous contacts to our organization was also sent packing.

Finances are low for just about everyone I know.

Times are HARD. Very very very hard.

I want to pack my bags and go to a foreign land. I want to live off the bare minimum and find happiness in being alive.

Blah Blah Blah.

I can't even write.